I have been reading a lot of blogs lately, some I comment on, but usually I need an incentive because I’m getting lazy. My time has been short this weekend because my days and nights have gotten mixed up somehow and I usually spend a majority of my time with Bill because he’s funny and usually he makes me feel better, but sometimes he irritates me just because I’m a grouchy old witch.

Laughter is so important because it relieves stress and tension and has been reported to help you live longer, but I have decided if I don’t get rid of this fricken menopause I really don’t know how much more life I can take. I tried giving up smoking, but it did not last. I was nicotine free for 3 or 4 weeks and I thought the worse was over…Well guess what, yup I started back.

For over 40 years they have been my constant companion and at 54 I thought I would try to dump my best friend because I pictured myself roaming and living on the streets and not being able to afford them when I get older and really get senile. Bill’s family thought I quit because something was wrong with me, but it was nothing so dramatic and I found out that our little Grandson put a prayer in his box awhile back asking God to help me quit.

I did slow down, but I haven’t told Nate that I started back yet, however I’m not chain smoking any more. I know I probably will not be able to keep that under control though because I’m sitting here right now craving one and I’m such a weak minded person. I would like to gain some sort of power over it instead of the other way around. I might have to start the Chantix again, I know I quit taking them too early.

We’re debating taking the bike out for a short ride so I’ll wrap this post up. I know it’s not healthy and Bill says old people look horrible smoking. I would like to be an elegant old lady, but I don’t see that happening. I actually only wear my glasses when I’m working on the computer or riding the bike because I don’t like looking in the mirror and seeing all the wrinkles especially around the lips, that way they are diffused and I can pretend.

Some people really fight the aging process, but I don’t any more. I guess that is one good thing about menopause, it is helping me to let go of all those preconceived ideas of looking young forever, like Priscilla Presley and Joan Collins at 70 something. I admire Priscilla for getting out on that dance floor and she’s doing such a great job at 62. Joan Collins said that the younger man she is with now is her last. Now that made me laugh, I think she is fantastic and has alot of spunk.