When I was young I kept a diary like many other people, but I always kept it secret because I didn’t want anyone knowing how I actually felt about anything and some thoughts I didn’t even trust with a best friend because I found that even those best friends often used things against you especially when they got mad.

Now here I am writing a blog and revealing my thoughts to anyone that cares to read them. People like to share the experiences they have participated in during their life time and hope that others will relate and share in return, everyone has a story to tell and most are very interesting. I find it very therapeutic at times to just put parts of my life into words and get a better perspective about things.

I find myself writing about my son a lot and that helps. He wasn’t able to do his chemo last week because his blood count was too low and he was deathly sick because of the gallbladder and stones that should have been removed before starting the chemo. He was in the emergency room last night and they were forced to do a laparoscopic removal of the gallbladder and stone that was the size of a robins egg.

Hopefully he will now get some relief and be able to eat better. He has had to sleep in a recliner because he couldn’t lay down straight, at least now he will hopefully be able to rest better and keep up his strength. Like I said this problem should have been taken care of at the very start sometimes I simply don’t understand doctors and the decisions they make.

I think I mentioned before that I was 16 when Eric was born and Eric never knew his biological Father even though I tried several times over the years to arrange a meeting and they exchanged a few letters when Eric was younger, but it never happened. Eric asked me to contact the Father and let him know what was going on which I managed to do last night.

Eric thinks he is finally ready to meet with this person that didn’t want him or me way back then which is fine and I hope it wont prove to be too traumatic and stressful for him. I found out last night that cancer runs in that side of the family so at least that explains where it came from and so quickly because my side tends to be heart trouble.

At least now Eric can get a medical history and they will be prepared to watch out for certain things with Ethan. I need to close this down and get some other things done so happy blogging.