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Oct

Another Link Love Prayer List / Thank-You

   Posted by: jude   in Home and Family

I have already told you many of my life experiences and you know all about my son and the cancer he is facing and if you read the blog you know about his recent emergency gallbladder procedure last week and we were hoping for a relief for him. I was told that the surgery went well and hopefully he was going home the next day if he could eat and drink.

Apparently when they did the surgery a piece broke off even though it was laparoscopic and is now in his blood stream. It took till Thursday of last week to find out that the doctors advised my daughter-in-law to call hospice and now give him 6 months instead of the hopeful 2 years we were expecting. All of his counts were down including his white cells that kept him from his chemo.

His biological Father actually went to visit him in the hospital and he was nice enough to call me afterwards which my son didn’t bother to inform me about even though I knew it was going to happen, but not when. This was the first time he has met this person, his actual Father so I’m sure it was traumatic, but not any more than it was for me.

I was informed that my son actually was putting me down to this man that had never wanted us, but I was impressed that Andy actually took up for me and told my son that regardless of how he felt about me I was his Mother and deserved his respect just because I was his Mother, now wasn’t that cool coming from some sperm donor that never gave a shit?

Andy also told me that my son didn’t think much of my mental acumen and he stood up for me and told my son that I had always been smart, but I was lazy and just never applied myself, Damn what else could I ask for from some jerk that I let off the hook that never gave a shit about me or our son? God I’m blessed and now because “MY” son is dying he is going to lend himself  for a freaking DNA test.

I’m sorry if I sound bitter, but I am, my son is 38, long damn time for Andy to be the freaking hero all of a sudden and I’m a piece of crap. I did my best at 16 and I dearly love my son, but we had a rough time for many years living with a man that abused us both and it took me 10 years to get away from him, okay I don’t want to go there so I’ll put a dot at this sentence.

I found myself begging for prayers last Thursday in the EC forum when I found out they were suggesting hospice and 6 months or less of life and I really appreciated the responses and the good energy that was sent even though I feel hateful at this moment I want to return the good energy and love and prayers and I really do appreciate all thoughts for my son.

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http://www.catswiththumbs.com/

http://www.room237origins.com/

http://www.michaelaulia.com/blogs/

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http://entrecard.com/blog/

http://www.wisdomhypnosis.blogspot.com/

http://kez999.com/pages/kevingossett.html

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http://by-la.com/

http://awhitecat.blogspot.com/

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http://carolesthoughtfulspot.blogspot.com/

http://weight-watchers-points-recipes.blogspot.com/

http://momskitchencooking.blogspot.com/

http://theunwindingpath.com/transhypno/

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ally
 1 

hi… been here… I hope things will get better for you and your son. I just said a prayer for you. Take care…

October 22nd, 2008 at 3:33 am
ally
 2 

hi… been here… I hope things will get better for you and your son. I just said a prayer for you. Take care…

October 22nd, 2008 at 3:33 am
LuAnn
 3 

I cannot imagine being where you are now. Kids do not realize how difficult it is to raise a child until they have one themselves. The list above shows your wonderful, caring spirit. Nothing can take that from you.

October 22nd, 2008 at 5:43 am
LuAnn
 4 

I cannot imagine being where you are now. Kids do not realize how difficult it is to raise a child until they have one themselves. The list above shows your wonderful, caring spirit. Nothing can take that from you.

October 22nd, 2008 at 5:43 am
Theresa
 5 

I hate it when I don’t see you for awhile, and then come back to hear bad news about your son. I keep wondering how you take it all!

You are one strong woman!!! Still, my heart goes out to you.

October 22nd, 2008 at 7:55 am
Theresa
 6 

I hate it when I don’t see you for awhile, and then come back to hear bad news about your son. I keep wondering how you take it all!

You are one strong woman!!! Still, my heart goes out to you.

October 22nd, 2008 at 7:55 am
lala
 7 

My first thought is well, you heard about the visit from Andy’s side, and maybe that wasn’t completely truthful. Maybe Andy was telling you that’s what your son said, just to make you feel bad (and maybe him, Andy, feel better.)

I don’t know your relationship with your son. But I think I would be a little suspicious of someone who just all of a sudden showed up because of the circumstance.

If your son did say those things, it’s a stressful, awful time for him, and often we say things in those moments that we wouldn’t ordinarily say.

For your own piece of mind, and really your son’s, you should sit down with him, have a talk and let him clear the air. It has to be frightening that the 2 years you’re originally given is suddenly whittled down to 6 months.

Anyway, thanks for the “link love” and really my hopeful thoughts to you and your son in this difficult time.

October 22nd, 2008 at 9:17 am
lala
 8 

My first thought is well, you heard about the visit from Andy’s side, and maybe that wasn’t completely truthful. Maybe Andy was telling you that’s what your son said, just to make you feel bad (and maybe him, Andy, feel better.)

I don’t know your relationship with your son. But I think I would be a little suspicious of someone who just all of a sudden showed up because of the circumstance.

If your son did say those things, it’s a stressful, awful time for him, and often we say things in those moments that we wouldn’t ordinarily say.

For your own piece of mind, and really your son’s, you should sit down with him, have a talk and let him clear the air. It has to be frightening that the 2 years you’re originally given is suddenly whittled down to 6 months.

Anyway, thanks for the “link love” and really my hopeful thoughts to you and your son in this difficult time.

October 22nd, 2008 at 9:17 am
Lynne
 9 

I am so sorry to hear all of this is going on. You have enough pain to deal with in just that fact that your son is so ill. All of this emotional garbage is getting in the way and making things even more difficult.
I will pray that you can God can help you find peace and comfort and allow you to be with your son in the time he has left. (((hugs)))

October 22nd, 2008 at 11:37 am
Lynne
 10 

I am so sorry to hear all of this is going on. You have enough pain to deal with in just that fact that your son is so ill. All of this emotional garbage is getting in the way and making things even more difficult.
I will pray that you can God can help you find peace and comfort and allow you to be with your son in the time he has left. (((hugs)))

October 22nd, 2008 at 11:37 am
pam
 11 

Oh, Jude… I’m so sorry.

I know how bad you’re hurting, but if your son said those things I’m sure it was born of fear and bitterness of his own. Please don’t judge him too harshly.

I’m still praying. {{Hugs}}

October 22nd, 2008 at 12:33 pm
pam
 12 

Oh, Jude… I’m so sorry.

I know how bad you’re hurting, but if your son said those things I’m sure it was born of fear and bitterness of his own. Please don’t judge him too harshly.

I’m still praying. {{Hugs}}

October 22nd, 2008 at 12:33 pm
Karen, author of "My Funny Dad, Harry"
 13 

Boy, one thing after another it seems going wrong for you. I’m so sorry to hear that things have gone from bad to worse for your son. I really don’t know what to say but I do agree with Lala. I wouldn’t give Andy’s comments much thought. I’ll pray for you right now!

October 22nd, 2008 at 1:04 pm
Karen, author of "My Funny Dad, Harry"
 14 

Boy, one thing after another it seems going wrong for you. I’m so sorry to hear that things have gone from bad to worse for your son. I really don’t know what to say but I do agree with Lala. I wouldn’t give Andy’s comments much thought. I’ll pray for you right now!

October 22nd, 2008 at 1:04 pm
Lyndi
 15 

I continue thinking of you and your son. God bless you both.

October 22nd, 2008 at 1:05 pm
Lyndi
 16 

I continue thinking of you and your son. God bless you both.

October 22nd, 2008 at 1:05 pm
Felicia
 17 

I just wanted you to know that I just said a prayer for him and your family. God bless you all!

October 22nd, 2008 at 9:23 pm
Felicia
 18 

I just wanted you to know that I just said a prayer for him and your family. God bless you all!

October 22nd, 2008 at 9:23 pm
abelle | Only in Silence
 19 

I’m sorry to hear this. And I know no words can take away the hurt that easily. But I hope the words of all the people who care for you can at least give you comfort. Let me leave you with this: ‘For I know the plans I have for you’, declares the Lord, ‘plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future’ – Jeremiah29:11

Be strong ;)

October 22nd, 2008 at 9:26 pm
abelle | Only in Silence
 20 

I’m sorry to hear this. And I know no words can take away the hurt that easily. But I hope the words of all the people who care for you can at least give you comfort. Let me leave you with this: ‘For I know the plans I have for you’, declares the Lord, ‘plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future’ – Jeremiah29:11

Be strong ;)

October 22nd, 2008 at 9:26 pm
Carole
 21 

You know, my heart just goes out to you. :-( Your son is SO LUCKY to have you as a mother, I hope he realizes that. I agree with the other posters that I’m not sure you should believe all Andy told you… I think of you often and will pray right now for your son, and for God to bless you and comfort you and give you the strength to continue doing what you know are the right things to do, even if others are being jerks!

October 22nd, 2008 at 9:40 pm
Carole
 22 

You know, my heart just goes out to you. :-( Your son is SO LUCKY to have you as a mother, I hope he realizes that. I agree with the other posters that I’m not sure you should believe all Andy told you… I think of you often and will pray right now for your son, and for God to bless you and comfort you and give you the strength to continue doing what you know are the right things to do, even if others are being jerks!

October 22nd, 2008 at 9:40 pm
Lydia @ On The Verge
 23 

My thoughts and prayers go out to you and your son.

October 22nd, 2008 at 10:36 pm
Lydia @ On The Verge
 24 

My thoughts and prayers go out to you and your son.

October 22nd, 2008 at 10:36 pm
Luxor
 25 

We are continuing to keep you and your son in our thoughts and prayers.

Hugs,
Lux & family

October 22nd, 2008 at 10:36 pm
Luxor
 26 

We are continuing to keep you and your son in our thoughts and prayers.

Hugs,
Lux & family

October 22nd, 2008 at 10:36 pm
Isolated Existence
 27 

My prayers go out to you and your son. I agree with Lala, perhaps what Andy said it’s not what really happened…

October 23rd, 2008 at 2:28 am
Isolated Existence
 28 

My prayers go out to you and your son. I agree with Lala, perhaps what Andy said it’s not what really happened…

October 23rd, 2008 at 2:28 am
Margaret
 29 

Ahhhh — yes, I’m very familiar with this phenomenon. Although my son is healthy (thank GOD!), etc and he has always known who his real father is, when he became an adult and was living in the same town as his real father, this same kind of scenario occurred with him.

I, the person who had raised him, clothed and fed him with very little help from his natural father was vilified and scourged, but as time went on, and he spent more time with his dad, he began to see all the things I had put up with and endured and we came full circle back to being Mom again.

I know I’m not perfect (and wouldn’t want to be thought of as perfect either), but I have always considered myself as a good mother whose sons are showing the results of the upbringing they received at my hands. I did it without physical punishment and mental browbeating leaving them both confident of their abilities and self sufficient.

Your son will also come back around. Have faith in that. You’re doing the right thing asking for prayers, positive thoughts and white light from people to help ease your son’s transition into the other world. Be at peace with yourself and let all this petty stuff go by the way. It’s not worth your getting upset over because it’s so insignificant in this big picture of life and death.

Hugs to you,

Margaret

October 23rd, 2008 at 10:09 am
Margaret
 30 

Ahhhh — yes, I’m very familiar with this phenomenon. Although my son is healthy (thank GOD!), etc and he has always known who his real father is, when he became an adult and was living in the same town as his real father, this same kind of scenario occurred with him.

I, the person who had raised him, clothed and fed him with very little help from his natural father was vilified and scourged, but as time went on, and he spent more time with his dad, he began to see all the things I had put up with and endured and we came full circle back to being Mom again.

I know I’m not perfect (and wouldn’t want to be thought of as perfect either), but I have always considered myself as a good mother whose sons are showing the results of the upbringing they received at my hands. I did it without physical punishment and mental browbeating leaving them both confident of their abilities and self sufficient.

Your son will also come back around. Have faith in that. You’re doing the right thing asking for prayers, positive thoughts and white light from people to help ease your son’s transition into the other world. Be at peace with yourself and let all this petty stuff go by the way. It’s not worth your getting upset over because it’s so insignificant in this big picture of life and death.

Hugs to you,

Margaret

October 23rd, 2008 at 10:09 am
Carol
 31 

Still praying for you and your son. Praying you will find it in you to totally and completely forgive. It’s the only cure for bitterness.

Life, as you are in the midst of experiencing experiencing, is much too short.

Be blessed.

October 31st, 2008 at 12:35 pm
Carol
 32 

Still praying for you and your son. Praying you will find it in you to totally and completely forgive. It’s the only cure for bitterness.

Life, as you are in the midst of experiencing experiencing, is much too short.

Be blessed.

October 31st, 2008 at 12:35 pm

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