When I was 10 years old I copied the quote I have listed below from Socrates’ Apology into the back of my bible and it has always helped me. I don’t even remember where I found the quote way back then, but it simply made sense to me then and even now. I don’t fear dying for myself or for my son I simply don’t want him to go before I do.

I sincerely thank all of you for the support and prayers they have been much appreciated. I apologise for my hateful post last might, but it made me feel better just putting the words out there in the universe. No one likes to think about dying, but most of us have had to face it at various times in our lives with friends and loved ones and the tragedies that occur.

 ‘To fear death, gentlemen, is no other than to think oneself wise when one is not, to think one knows what one does not know. No one knows whether death may not be the greatest of all blessings for a man, yet men fear it as if they knew that it is the greatest of evils. And surely it is the most blameworthy ignorance to believe that one knows what one does not know.’

I have talked about death many times in the past I guess because I seem to have seen a lot of it. I am dealing with this present situation very well under the circumstances and now I am determined to stop grieving for what could have been and simply remember that I sometimes got to share some happy experiences with another living soul who just happens to be my son.