Dec

Things I Should Keep To Myself

I have learned in my real life to keep things private and I don’t talk about things that really matter to me to anyone but Bill. I have found it easy to type about things that I can’t say to most people on my blog though as many other people do and we really deserve it when people call us out on things we write because we put it out there for the world to see. I enjoy reading blogs about things that happen to real people in their real world. Maybe some things I should keep to myself.

Just because I’m depressed doesn’t mean I should subject people to stupid posts like my last one although I might consider most of my posts as stupid lately. I decided not to post any more about my son and his condition because it’s just too depressing for most people as it is for me. I am hoping to go down in January and I hate that he is so far away and I can’t just pop over when I feel like it. I’m sorry to share with you that my heart is breaking and I am drinking to dull the pain.

I can’t even get pictures of my new grandson because they are too busy just trying to survive and get through this horrible time. We read posts about real things that have happened or are about to happen and we share that persons unhappiness or triumphs and their ups and downs and we get involved because we care. I’m really sorry for typing things that may upset some people, but because I don’t know you nor you me it’s often easy, but maybe there are some things I should just keep to myself.

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8 comments so far

Carol

It’s your blog, and you can darn well write anything that you feel comfortable with. I know a little bit about feeling like your heart is breaking. I miss my son and his family very much and we won’t be able to be with them this Christmas. They are in CA and us in WA state. I have no magic words to say, other than that I care about you and I hope things get better for you. I am one of your faithful readers, and you have not depressed me with what you have written at all.

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December 10th, 2008 at 10:15 pm

ICe

Nice blog, it’s real;)

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December 11th, 2008 at 6:55 am

ManInTheMoon

You hang in there, and feel free to pour out whatever emotions you need to into the blogosphere. We’re tough. We can take it.

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December 11th, 2008 at 11:07 am

Anna

You’re going through a tough time and you have to vent somehow or explode, that’s what this blog is for! Don’t ever feel like you can’t say whatever you want. Like Carol said, it’s your blog and you can do that!

As for all that’s going on…just live each moment, don’t dwell on what’s happened or what might happen or even what probably will happen. There’s nothing you can do about the past and the future is exactly that…in the future. You have to live in this moment and live it with hope because it’s all anyone is guaranteed.

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December 11th, 2008 at 1:10 pm

Jenny Fletcher

Carol is right. It’s your blog and you write exactly what you want. I too am very depressed, and I’m having a particularly bad day. I have huge financial worries, I am having a hard time dealing with the break up of my marriage even though my husband walked nearly 3 years ago now. It would be all too easy for me to sink into alcohol or simply make myself doped up on the anti-depressants I’ve been offered and not do anything practical to get myself out of the mess my life is in. For some reason, I’ve never looked to alcohol as an answer although the house is awash with it. I don’t know how I fight my way from one day to the next, somehow I do. What I do know is that writing it down is very therapeutic. I also know that even if you are thousands of miles away, we have a connection, we are much the same age and generation and also outlook I think. I really care that you are going through a tough time. Don’t keep it all inside. I heard a very serious discussion on the benefits of blogging for people who are depressed on a BBC Radio 4 programme recently. All in the Mind. You might be able to get to it on bbc.co.uk/radio4 as a podcast. Sending you big hugs and holding hands across oceans and mountains.

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December 11th, 2008 at 1:13 pm

Lea

It’s said that sharing your thoughts and feelings can be therapeutic and many people use their blogs as a source for healing.

Personally, I’m interested in hearing how you and your family are coping with the tough circumstances your presently going through. I would imagine a lot of people are able to relate to it, having gone through it themselves. Knowing your not alone can be very supportive. Who knows, some of them might even respond with their experiences.

So my theory is, if it feels right to write and publish it, then why not?

My thoughts are always with you and your family. Many blessings

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December 11th, 2008 at 1:44 pm

dawn

Please don’t drink to dull the pain-
It will only make your depression worse!
You need to take care of yourself, so you will be strong when your son really needs you.
I have sons trying to make a life for themselves right now too.
It sucks that the world is in such chaos for this time in our childrens lives …
But they’ll survive!
The human survival instinct is pretty darn strong -
Hang in there …
and quit drinking to dull the pain!!!!!!!!

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December 11th, 2008 at 7:11 pm

dawn

Thanks for sharing the details of your son with me …
I tried to find a blog post that said something to explain your pain – but couldn’t find one.
I assumed wrong that his troubles were maybe something to do with economics.
I meant no offense with my comment.
My perspective comes from the daughter of arecovering alcoholic, and wife of a recovering drug addict.
That is why I didn’t want you to drink -
I feared for your son!
I understand your pain … and will keep your family in my prayers – God Bless.

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December 11th, 2008 at 11:57 pm