When Bill got sick I thought crap not over the holidays, then Shadow got hurt then I got sick then everything started snowballing and it has been downhill since. I kept wondering to myself what in the world have I done so bad that Karma is slamming me with everything all at once. Now I am looking at things a bit differently. If I hadn’t had all of these other distractions and sickness to take my mind off my Son I could very well have totally lost it.
I need to work my feelings out and I will do so eventually on this blog, but for now I would really like to thank 2 people for taking the time to sign my Son’s guestbook and they are Frosty Povick who didn’t leave a blog address. I thank you with all my heart and would love to include your blog address and Carole at Carole’s Thoughtful Spot. You both not only left support and very nice comments here, but you also extended extra thoughtfulness and I really appreciate it.
The people below have shown concern and sympathy and I really appreciate all the prayers that have been extended over the past few months:
Carole at Carole’s Thoughtful Spot
Pam at Beannachd
Lea at Ocean Of Perspectives
Theresa at Bumpy Path
Maitri at Maitri’s Heart
Carol at Ipentimento
Patricia at Communication Exchange
Annie at Annie’s Savvy Cafe
Isolated Existence
Pinklady
Karen at Karen and Gerard Zemeks
Lynne at Sewing Mom
Jenny at Angry Button
Flit at Flitting
Anna at A Rose By Name
Wanda at Chilly’s Cooking
Lydia at On The Verge
Matt at Matt-Speak
Shari at Ask Me Why
Mye at Blog Appetite
Cindy at Country Musings
Ian at So Far So Good
Chris at C-Tech
David & Jan at Better Spines
David at The Art Of Peace
We picked up Shadow and Sadie yesterday from the kennel and we were praying really hard that Shadow would be walking, but the treatment hasn’t helped yet. The vet said that if the prednisone hadn’t worked by now that it probably wasn’t going to, but he still decided to give him enough for 7 more doses. I told him I didn’t want Shadow to get the side effects from too many steroids and he said that he would have to be taking them for a month or more before that would happen.
I told Bill that I need a baby bed because it’s too hard on my back and knees getting up and down and moving his pads around to a dry spot. He weighs 49 pounds and it’s like a dead weight because he can’t help me at least if he was higher I could maneuver him better. We used his blanket like a gurney to pick him up and put him in his wagon when we took him to and from the vets so that made it a lot better. I’m hoping it’s just a really bad sprain and will heal in a few months.
He’s not really in pain and he’s very alert and there’s nothing wrong with his front part, but he wants one of us near him at all times. If he’s not better by Spring we’ll just pull him around in his wagon when we take a walk because he loves to check everything out. This dog means the world to me and by taking care of him it helps alleviate the pain and loss I feel for my Son. Bill came home from work early to relieve me so I could get a few things done so I think I’ll drop some cards just to take my mind off things.
I plan on posting a list of all the blogs that left me such kind comments tomorrow, believe me I really appreciated them. That nasty cold is still hanging in there since Christmas so we may be going to the doctor soon.
It’s not easy losing anyone you love and animals are included. We form bonds and forge love relationships in many different ways. Regardless of our feelings and pain, we all love, but as humans we tend to categorize these different types of love and divide them into different compartments and we want our own special cubicle.
I felt very left out of my Son’s funeral and wasn’t asked for any input and Eric’s wife decided I wasn’t even important enough to be put in the video that was shown for family and friends although the person that was a jerk was featured that beat us both up when we were together for the first 10 years for me from 17 till 27 and Eric from 5 months till 10.
I wont get very technical or graphical, but the boy loved that person inspite of everything and boys do love the men that raise them and form bonds. It was a little too late for the blood Father who I recently found for my Son, but he was invited by Eric’s wife even though it wasn’t my choice and I wasn’t even considered, Oh ..Well so much for that.
Eric David Andrews /Online Obituary please sign his guestbook…Thank-you
Rest In Peace My Son/Bill and I Love This Photo
We just got home safely and I appreciate all of the prayers. I don’t feel like posting right now, but wanted everyone to know we’re back and still sick and will post something Monday, but my Son is resting now and I’m heartsick, but not sad that he is with his creator.
