I think what you are going through is normal. Especially that first year, when you have to go through all of your “firsts”–First Christmas without him, First His birthday, first Your birthday, first his kid’s birthdays, first summer, etc. It’s hard and you don’t know how you’ll act or feel in the process. Each person grieves and deals with death in very personal ways and we are not to judge. If you feel judged, then I would say the person judging hasn’t been through loss in such great measure–and I guess we have to ignore and forgive that soul and pray he/she doesn’t ever go through the same grief. People suck sometimes, but you know what….sometimes they don’t too. Ignore the sucky ones for now. You are most important.

I’m glad you have the blog to work some of this out. It is important to write and experience your feelings, no matter how strange or painful they must be. Be grateful you have the ability to express yourself in such fashion and embrace the support you receive–even if we are strangers.

I’m sending you a hug and comfort knowing that you are okay. Yes, there will be numb days–those are your heart’s way of saying “I can’t deal with this today” but know that two days later when you have a good cry, you can handle it.

Be strong, my friend. Or don’t. You will make it through this whether you want to or not. I’m sorry that you are hurting.

hi jude – it is really difficult and i sincerely understand. when i became a mom i became more sensitive to family matters and everything that deals about family, parents and children.

just be strong and remember, you have us, your online buddies – friends who would always like to read how you express your thoughts and emotions.

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God gave us life in this world, why? because He wants us to appreciate His creation.

I understand your feelings, grieving the life of our love ones is one big thing that we can’t understand if we were already in that kind of situation. Back to my experience about my brother who died 23 years ago, when he was killed by unidentified person in their school campus premises, the whole family get lost, we don’t know what to do, but to cried and cried, to accept that he was lost and he will never come back again. He is a very sweet brother of mine, loving and caring.. I considered my family as a happy family although we are in a low class, when He died, all things change, my elder sister became an alcoholic, my brother wanted to find that person who killed my late brother my parents got sicked and me, sometimes I slept in my friends house, so sad because the happily family that I had before got lost too, but time heal the wounds in our heart..second when my father died 17 years ago from illness, I am already married that time, the whole family accepted that events we experience, and the last one, when I took birth to my second baby boy, after six months He died because of the cerosis of the liver, I did all my effort to save him, but the doctor told me, YOU LOST YOUR SON. I felt the bruised when the doctor told me about that, but I prayed to our God, and dedicated my son when He was in my arms after my prayer He was died.
After ten years, I separated my husband and brought with me my daughter, and surprisingly, after 11 years, someone gave me baby boy, which is very near from the name of my late baby son..My son’s name died was John Richard and now the baby boy given to me by a sixteen years old girl is John Rey..my baby boy now is already 1 year old and six months…

I share it this circumstances to you, to assure you that God knows the desire of our heart, He cares about us, in everything has a reason, it is normal for us to feel those things because we are all human. The purpose why we were able to experience the unexpected things in our life just because He wants to mold our hearts, this are the salt of our life.

God wants us to prepare the place belong to us. God is love..love is the fulfillment of God’s law. God loves you and your lucky because of that..

Just to say that I am here if you need me, I am offering my hand as your good friend. God bless you and Happy Valentines day to you and to your family.

In prayer and love,

Star

What you are going through is part of the grieving process. Any of us that have experienced it can understand exactly what you are saying. At times it can seem like you will never feel whole again, or that it will always seem like you are in a daze. It does pass with time and healing. You need to experience the process at your own pace, just remember to reach out to people if it seems overwhelming at times.

I am all for the times being like when I was a kid and we lived by the “golden rule” and people had time to really care about each other and show it in healthy ways. I hope you find the peace and comfort and healing that you need and deserve.
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