3
Mar

It Seems Like All I Do Is Whine About Something

   Posted by: jude   in Home and Family

Snow and freezing temperatures can go away now, I’m simply tired of all the doom and gloom it makes me feel. Even though time goes by very quickly the older I get it seems like Spring and Summer will never get here. I really need a lift in spirit because I didn’t get to see Ethan this past weekend because they were sick. I certainly want to see him before she takes him back to Kentucky, we bought him a bigger car seat and if she doesn’t bring him by like she said she would I guess I’ll just take it back for a refund.

My Son always swore he was never getting married or have children, he did both before he left us. I really haven’t had a chance to get to know his wife, but always felt like something had to be wrong with her grasp of reality for marrying my Son. Don’t get me wrong I love my Son with all my heart, but he was my Son and I knew him well and loved him inspite of knowing what a cold person he could be and cruel as a human being. I have never been worried about his soul though because I know it is perfect and he’s fine.

He knew that I didn’t believe in the concept of Hell, but I’m not really sure what his thoughts were on the subject, however we both believed in a higher power or energy that we would eventually return to. He believed in prayer and good energy the same as I do and I never once heard him say the devil made him do anything, he did at least take credit for all of his actions and made it clear to anyone that would listen that he lived his life the way he wanted to good or bad and if someone didn’t like it so be it.

I miss the brat and it ticks me off no end that he left before me. When he was younger he cut me out of his life for 4 years and then decided I was getting old so he should make amends before I died. Pity that it was him instead of me he could at least have watched his Son grow. It really bites that I wont even get to watch Ethan myself unless this silly woman returns to live in PA. Oh, well, what will be will be, I do believe there is a reason for everything, but I want to know what it is right now.

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Mamaflo
 1 

I’m sorry the pain in your heart is so tremendous, I can hear and feel it and my own heart goes out to you.
Your son has found peace, I hope you are able to do the same.
Keep trying with your DIL to see your grandson, maybe it will pay off, just remember that you get nowhere without trying.

March 3rd, 2009 at 10:18 am
admin
 2 

Thank-you Mamaflo I do my best to ease my pain and appreciate your kindness. Believe me I do try, but if she takes him back to Kentucky to grow up there wont be much I can do about seeing him since we’re so far away and I can’t afford to go down there all the time.

March 3rd, 2009 at 1:39 pm
Carole
 3 

You are so refreshingly honest about your feelings, I love that about you. No BS here! :-) I too am just feeling like it’s hard to have positive thoughts with this winter just dragging on. I love winter, but for crying out loud it’s March – we’re not supposed to have 8 inches of snow on the ground. So much for global warming. Anyway, try to think positive – maybe Eric’s wife will decide to stay, and maybe she’ll turn out to be a little gem – you never know sometimes.

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March 3rd, 2009 at 2:41 pm
admin
 4 

Hi Carole,
I know she has to return and take care of all the legal matter, but this will be her first time alone her Mother stayed with her after the funeral and she’s been staying in Lancaster with her Mother while here. I’m hoping by herself she will see just how lonely it will be there without him and return up here. Good to see you.

March 3rd, 2009 at 2:58 pm
Lin
 5 

My Grandpa used to say “Don’t try to figure people out” which kinda drove me nuts, but I think he’s right. Who knows why your son left you and then came back–you just have to be glad that he did before he left for good. There has to be some relief in that on some level. Imagine if he didn’t?

Who knows why this girl married him, had his children……and what she is going through. I’m sure she’s confused on where to go, what to do. You can’t begin to figure it out. About all you can do is be supportive and friendly so that you don’t lose contact with the little ones.

Try not to see what makes her tick, but accept her for what she is (or isn’t) for the moment. Things happen for a reason, although we don’t always know why. Your son came back, didn’t he?

I’m sending a little squeeze because I think you need one today. Lots of changes going on…that’s hard. Hang in there, Jude.

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March 3rd, 2009 at 5:22 pm
Blog and SEO tips
 6 

lol people say that i whine playing video games :) Sometimes im not happy but…
And I can say that Americans know this word only. If something is wrong they say “stop whinning”.

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March 3rd, 2009 at 5:34 pm
Anna
 7 

Whine all you like my dear! You have every right to be down! As my mom would say, though…”Just don’t wallow in it!” She’d say, whine, stomp your foot, let it out and then let it go. And you’re right that everything happens for a reason and it’s very hard to accept that we may never know the reason. Hang in there…

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March 4th, 2009 at 2:14 am
bigdaddyrichard
 8 

My own 4 kids are grown ups. They told me the same things your brat told you…they were never going to leave us…but I know deep in my heart that this will happen someday…that I will feel the same things you felt one of these days. Thanks for sharing your feelings!

March 4th, 2009 at 4:27 am
mye
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hi jude – i have been silently lurking and reading your posts but for some reason, this time i know i have to say something to ease your pain.

i know it is so hard to accept what had happened, it will be the only way for you to move on and fully recover. just always remember that your son is watching over you now.

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March 4th, 2009 at 8:21 am
Make a pound
 10 

Aww sorry to hear that its a terrible thing I lost my dad a year ago all so sudden but I guess that’s life we just have to make the most of the time we have I hope that you get to see Ethan more often and remember that it might be hard for her to see you it might bring back memories so just be accommodating and i hope things work out ok.

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March 4th, 2009 at 9:20 am

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