18
Mar

Facing My Aging Fears

   Posted by: jude   in Retirement

When I started this blog I put it in the mixed bag category then changed it to women’s interest because I’m quite sure men really don’t care what I blog about. Of course there are several other categories that I could list it, but I really don’t think it matters. If they had a senior lifestyle I would probably list it there, because many older couples are deciding to live together without that legal piece of paper because of economical and other reasons. We had planned on getting married 6 years ago, but for various reasons have decided against it for now.

Older people have many worries just like everyone else. We worry if we’ll be able to survive when retirement comes, will there be enough money, will Social Security benefits be there for those of us that worked all our lives, but at menial jobs that have no retirement benefits and had to live from week to week. Health is a big issue for us of course because for those that didn’t practise healthy living we tend to start falling apart and even if we did practise healthy living habits various illnesses still seem to befall us.

I always hate to read the obits because my friends seem to be dying left and right, Bill on the other hand does read it and keeps me informed. Depression seems to run rampant amongst many older seniors that aren’t active or have something to look forward to. I’ve mentioned before that other than Bill’s keen interest in motorcycles and riding I’m not sure how he will fill his leisure time and he worries about not being able to ride, that’s his biggest fear so we’ve been considering a trike. I know I would feel much safer on 3 wheels.

What happens when we get too old to drive and can barely walk, are we forgotten and discarded because we have become a burden? Not all families are loving and helpful to their parents or elders, but some do try to take care of them and it does get very stressful for all concerned. At some point inevitably the nursing home option comes into play, I do not want to go to a nursing home I’d rather be dead. If anything ever happens to Bill I will be totally alone and very lonely, but there will be no other man in my life for companionship or otherwise.

Bill has told his children that if he goes before me he wants me to live here till I die and I’m quite sure that wouldn’t be very long without him. If he doesn’t make that will before something happens I could very well find myself out on the street which is something else that bothers me. When we are young we tend to live for the moment and put old age on the back burner, but it creeps up before you know it. I could probably live on the street, but I’m not sure how long I would survive and still I wouldn’t want to go to a nursing home.

I don’t fight with my wrinkles any more nor do I try to cover my silver and that’s the best part of aging for me and I know Bill will never trade me in for a younger model or at least I hope not. Okay enough of my old age rambling for today I hope I didn’t depress anyone, it’s time to go out and enjoy the sunshine and push those gloomy thoughts away. Since we are living longer I think I’ll do like I did when I was young and start worrying about all that crap when I’m in my 80’s, God willing and the body isn’t worn out by then.

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9 comments so far

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The wrinkles and grey hair part are the least of my worries. Finances and finding interesting things to do are greater concerns.

March 18th, 2009 at 3:07 pm
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I have thoughts and concerns about retirement age as well. But what I wanted to comment on is a need for legal assurances in certain situations.

There are some legal rights for life partners, but I don’t know what those rights might include if one partner dies. You might check into that.

I know of one woman who reunited with an ex husband later in life, but refused to remarry him. When he died, she couldn’t afford to continue living where they had lived together and the owners would not let her stay even though her children stated they would contribute to her rent cost. This happened several years ago and in a different state. Laws might have changed since then and each state has different laws.

Government regulations provide for spouses when it comes to one surviving a partner and even for ex spouses for social security benefits. As far as I know, they still don’t provide for unmarried partners, which is a real shame.

Finding out what your state’s laws are on unmarried life partners and social security’s policies could be beneficial. You could find that you have rights you were unaware of or your findings might help motivate Bill to take the time to make a will to ensure you have certain rights.

Wishing you and all you hold dear all the best :)

March 18th, 2009 at 6:15 pm
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I don’t find you depressing, just dealing with the inevitable. And I’ll be there before you know it too. Good for you, thinking and planning for what’s to come.

Lin’s last blog post..The Gatekeeper

March 18th, 2009 at 8:45 pm
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The sooner we stop fighting Mother Natures plan for us the sooner we can enjoy what life offers us. Be happy that you have someone to enjoy your life with and that you are still intelligible enough to write a blog.
Being a woman after 50 in our world today is somewhat challenging due to all the marketed ‘perfect woman’ adverts. It is also very challenging because we are living longer and staying healthier which tends to add demand for us to stay working longer.
Marriages are not what they use to be and more people are alone today aside from death due to the lack of commitment to one another. All that said…we must learn to just live and enjoy what we can.
I deal with women at 15 that are so caught up in low self-esteem and insecurities of how they will survive life that it scares me a bit.
It is not just the mature women today with worries. When I think about being 15 even in my twenties…I never even gave self-esteem a second thought. Now it seems to be the buzz word for such an early age group.
Being financially secure is a definite priority for everyone today. I fell so many of us are rowing in the same boat no matter what are age group is.
I enjoy your thoughts immensely.
Have a very positive day!

Dorothy L’s last blog post..

March 19th, 2009 at 10:25 am
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I have every fear listed and more. I am scared to death of getting older. I mean who is going to take care of me when I am unable to? etc., etc., etc.

Oh gosh I know exactly how you are feeling and it is scary as hell.

Jodi’s last blog post..I Am An Ellen Degeneres Fan Big Time

March 19th, 2009 at 11:35 am
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Oh Boy…aging! I hate to think about it but it is an inevitable part of living, I guess. We had several rental properties which we sold. We kept our former house to rent to our grandson. We bought a one story home because I was unable to manage the stairs at our tri-level. With the sale of the properties, we were able to purchase this one outright. It is as easily maintainable home because of it’s open floor plan (which I thought would make it accessible for a wheelchair if that were to be in my future. OH MY…the kids thought I had lost my mind purchasing a house with thoughts of some day being handicapped, but, secretly, I thought it ingenious. The master bedroom has a dressing room with a large vanity which would hold a microwave with room underneath for a small ‘fridge…I could have, basically, an apartment. It has french doors to an outside patio and is a lovely, large room. My daughter just stood and shook her head when I was planning it out. I told her she could move in with me and I would have my own place and she could have the rest of the house…hmmmm, maybe that’s why she was shaking her head.

Judy’s last blog post..The Apple Of His Eye

March 19th, 2009 at 3:11 pm
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I think I’ll worry about being lonely or not when I get older so it’s important to have a companion and this happens via finding the right partner to marry.

Hicham’s last blog post..InSight

March 19th, 2009 at 5:04 pm
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The Count is 73 years old and has faced all of the problem of age, including facing death.
His wife of 53 years makes his life both possible and enjoyable. If you are young you must face your fears now and prepare to face them. If you don’t, it doesn’t matter whether you are male or female. Age will not go away and your fears will merely attract it and magnify its effect. Life is short. Let’s make it first class, as the late French writer Phillipe Noiret said. Count Sneaky

Count Sneaky’s last blog post..

March 20th, 2009 at 10:53 pm
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haha, Try having hiv and hcv for 17 years, compensated cirrhosis, and fighting off every imaginable illness. Worrying about aging is the least of my concerns. Be happy for today, be happy for no cancer or other deadly thing, live healthy, be healthy, and live in today. Tomorrow will take care of itself.

Rick’s last blog post..Rick has Pneumonia

March 22nd, 2009 at 2:55 am

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