A mind is a terrible thing to waste and today mine feels like it’s atrophied, believe me that’s not a very good feeling. My mind feels totally blank, usually I have something going on up there, but today I can’t even find a subject that is bothering me or I need an answer for, I just feel blah. Maybe it’s because of Easter and it’s raining today and I’ve been looking at Eric’s baby pictures and remembering how excited he always was during holidays.
It’s been almost 4 months since he passed away and if it hadn’t been for blogging and keeping my mind occupied I’m not sure where my misery might have taken me. It almost feels like I have been sleep walking and everything seems like a dream. In my office I have his pictures all around me, no it’s not like a shrine or anything they just seem to comfort me and give me strength to go another day in this reality. I take comfort in knowing his soul is safe, but I miss him.
Eric 2 months old:


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