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Apr

Holidays Always Remind Me Of My Son

   Posted by: jude   in Home and Family

A mind is a terrible thing to waste and today mine feels like it’s atrophied, believe me that’s not a very good feeling. My mind feels totally blank, usually I have something going on up there, but today I can’t even find a subject that is bothering me or I need an answer for, I just feel blah. Maybe it’s because of Easter and it’s raining today and I’ve been looking at Eric’s baby pictures and remembering how excited he always was during holidays.

It’s been almost 4 months since he passed away and if it hadn’t been for blogging and keeping my mind occupied I’m not sure where my misery might have taken me. It almost feels like I have been sleep walking and everything seems like a dream. In my office I have his pictures all around me, no it’s not like a shrine or anything they just seem to comfort me and give me strength to go another day in this reality. I take comfort in knowing his soul is safe, but I miss him.

Eric 2 months old:

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24 comments so far

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My condolences to you on your lost …. the overwhelming sense of lost does lessen over time. I pray you have people surrounding you that offer support.

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April 11th, 2009 at 2:20 pm
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My condolences to you on your lost …. the overwhelming sense of lost does lessen over time. I pray you have people surrounding you that offer support.

Straight Talk’s last blog post..God Our Fortress

April 11th, 2009 at 2:20 pm
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So sorry for your loss. My prayers are with you. May you have a blessed Easter.

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April 11th, 2009 at 2:20 pm
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So sorry for your loss. My prayers are with you. May you have a blessed Easter.

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April 11th, 2009 at 2:20 pm
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I didn’t know about your son, I am sorry to learn. Know what you mean about blogging. After the Death of the Mom,I had a hard time. My friends just moved on but I could not. Started Blogging and it has helped. Still have those days of sadness. thank you for sharing , Auntie E

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April 11th, 2009 at 2:30 pm
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I didn’t know about your son, I am sorry to learn. Know what you mean about blogging. After the Death of the Mom,I had a hard time. My friends just moved on but I could not. Started Blogging and it has helped. Still have those days of sadness. thank you for sharing , Auntie E

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April 11th, 2009 at 2:30 pm
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Thank-you all so much for your kind thoughts and prayer this Easter and I’m so sorry about your Mom Auntie E I lost mine when I was 7 and I’ve really missed not having her in my life all these years, my prayers are with you and thank God for this outlet.

April 11th, 2009 at 2:45 pm
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Thank-you all so much for your kind thoughts and prayer this Easter and I’m so sorry about your Mom Auntie E I lost mine when I was 7 and I’ve really missed not having her in my life all these years, my prayers are with you and thank God for this outlet.

April 11th, 2009 at 2:45 pm
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Blogging really helps I think–or journaling in a book. Somedays are better than others, but every holiday just seems to be hard.

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April 11th, 2009 at 4:50 pm
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Blogging really helps I think–or journaling in a book. Somedays are better than others, but every holiday just seems to be hard.

Judy Miller’s last blog post..A Day In The Life….or It’s Always Something

April 11th, 2009 at 4:50 pm
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Hi Jude..what an adorable picture. I lost my Mom 2 years ago. She lived with us the last 4 years of her life. I still miss her so much and get weepy often. The memories are what keeps us going. I still keep you and yours in my prayers and will continue to do so. God Bless!

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April 11th, 2009 at 6:07 pm
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Hi Jude..what an adorable picture. I lost my Mom 2 years ago. She lived with us the last 4 years of her life. I still miss her so much and get weepy often. The memories are what keeps us going. I still keep you and yours in my prayers and will continue to do so. God Bless!

Judy’s last blog post..The Teardrop

April 11th, 2009 at 6:07 pm
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I am so very sorry for your loss. God bless you! I know what it is like to lose a loved one. Please take care and know that God does love you. ((hugs))

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April 11th, 2009 at 6:46 pm
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I am so very sorry for your loss. God bless you! I know what it is like to lose a loved one. Please take care and know that God does love you. ((hugs))

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April 11th, 2009 at 6:46 pm
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I am so very sorry for your loss, I can’t even imagine how difficult it is to loose your child. I’m glad you are blogging with us though and wish you a blessings every day of your life.

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April 11th, 2009 at 9:22 pm
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I am so very sorry for your loss, I can’t even imagine how difficult it is to loose your child. I’m glad you are blogging with us though and wish you a blessings every day of your life.

Mamaflo’s last blog post..A Big Texas Offering of BlueBonnets

April 11th, 2009 at 9:22 pm
 17 

I can think of no greater pain than the loss of a loved one. My heart and prayers go out to you.

Karen

April 11th, 2009 at 11:25 pm
 18 

I can think of no greater pain than the loss of a loved one. My heart and prayers go out to you.

Karen

April 11th, 2009 at 11:25 pm
 19 

I pray to God to give you more strength…

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April 12th, 2009 at 4:10 am
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I pray to God to give you more strength…

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April 12th, 2009 at 4:10 am
 21 

I read your post and in doing so felt some of your pain. I guess it’s the way you wrote it. Consequently, I felt compelled to comment.

Experiencing the death of a love one is the hardest thing to cope with during our life time. It leaves such a feeling of loss and helplessness and unfortunately the only thing that can begin to heal that pain is time and God. I pray that God gives you strength and more comfort as only he can.

April 12th, 2009 at 2:29 pm
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I read your post and in doing so felt some of your pain. I guess it’s the way you wrote it. Consequently, I felt compelled to comment.

Experiencing the death of a love one is the hardest thing to cope with during our life time. It leaves such a feeling of loss and helplessness and unfortunately the only thing that can begin to heal that pain is time and God. I pray that God gives you strength and more comfort as only he can.

April 12th, 2009 at 2:29 pm
 23 

Oh, Jude. I’m sending some warm hugs your way. It’s still so very fresh and it is good that you do have a place where you can put his pictures and feel his presence. He’s still with you, it’s just that sometimes we don’t always feel it. I’m glad you have some great photos to remember him by.

Lin’s last blog post..Happiness is Paying-It-Forward (well, and warm sunshine on your belly)

April 12th, 2009 at 11:25 pm
 24 

Oh, Jude. I’m sending some warm hugs your way. It’s still so very fresh and it is good that you do have a place where you can put his pictures and feel his presence. He’s still with you, it’s just that sometimes we don’t always feel it. I’m glad you have some great photos to remember him by.

Lin’s last blog post..Happiness is Paying-It-Forward (well, and warm sunshine on your belly)

April 12th, 2009 at 11:25 pm

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