I have stopped buying stuff, you might wonder what I’m referring to so I’ll tell you. Stuff to me are things I like to have around and look at which actually serve no purpose except to gather dust. Nick-knacks, wooden boxes, Nascar collectibles, anything I think might be old and worth money someday. I have stopped wondering about all the treasures I might find at someones yard sale because it’s only stuff and I can’t take it with me nor would I want to.

Every time we pass all that loot on our rides Bill always asks me if I want to stop and look around and my answer is always no lately. I have no more room for any stuff and I’m thinking about getting rid of the stuff I already have because it’s clutter. I hate being a pack rat and I need to let everything go so it wont be a burden. Anything I don’t actually use I’m going to get rid of and that goes for the stuff in my mind also. I have collected so much clutter and baggage in my mind over the years that it weights me down.

I always hear Christians talking about giving their burdens to God and letting him take care of them. God has always taken care of me or some higher power has, but I still feel burdened maybe that comes from the chemical imbalance in my head. As bad as Alzheimer sounds and is I sometimes would love to just forget everything and relearn every day until the end. Yes, I’ve known many people that suffer from Alzheimer or some type of dementia and it’s very sad and hard on the families.

I get tired of worrying about people, places, and things and worry is just a wasted emotion. I’ve tried to live in the now and let everything take it’s natural course, but that doesn’t always work for me. It’s so easy to tell other people what they should and should not be doing and how to do and not do, but then it’s not them. Usually when it comes to something that touches them they fall apart and don’t know how to handle things or that’s been my experience, they can handle someone elses life, but not their own.

Can you imagine the chaos we would be living in if Moses hadn’t come down from the Mountain with God’s 10 commandments? I’m not a bible thumper and I’m always amazed how God talks to only a selected few, the chosen few like Jimmy Swaggart and others in his profession. God has never talked to me at least I don’t think so if he did I’m sure I didn’t listen. I’m sure he’s touched my heart at times like when my Son was born and Ethan and when he gave Bill to me.

I’ll stop my thoughts there on those subjects because I didn’t mean to get off track. My point was about letting go of all the clutter and stuff. Just because something is of value to me doesn’t mean it will be to someone else so I’m going to stop hoarding and buying material stuff unless I’m going to use it. When we’re out riding I have always loved looking at other peoples stuff that has cluttered their lives, but from now on that’s where I’m going to leave it, in their yard and life. I have enough stuff to get rid of.