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Rest In Peace/Both My Sons

   Posted by: jude8753   in Home and Family

Shadow/My Eskie/3 Months/8-5-99 – 12-26-09
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Eric/My Son/2 Months/5-19-70 – 12-29-08
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My last post was on the 23rd of  2009 and today is Jan 5th, 2010 I have not been myself and I knew December was going to be rough for me because Shadow fell and hurt himself on the 24th of December 08 and my Son passed on the 29th 08.

My Shadow couldn’t walk for 9 months and then all of a sudden he decided it was time to get up and move and we thought everything was going to be okay. We had to have a tumor removed from his lip on Nov. 19th and he seemed to be doing great.

Dec. 24th he seemed depressed and refused to eat and then he started regurgitating, he passed away and left us very heartbroken on the 26th. In my mind he was totally human and intertwined in my heart with Eric, it was as if they were one in my mind.

Sadie got sick on Jan. 1st and we rushed her to the emergency animal hospital, but she is doing fine now, that is our other furry daughter and we didn’t want to lose her too. So all and all the last 2 Christmases have been the worse of my life, I’m skipping Dec from now on.

I don’t know when I’ll get back to posting or dropping on a regular bases, so take care friends and I hope your holidays were good ones.

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42 comments so far

 1 

My heart goes out to you. I have an old dog too and I cherish every day she is with us because I know it will not be for much longer. Your Shadow was truly a beautiful dog.
.-= Patricia´s last blog ..The Good Communicator Award =-.

January 5th, 2010 at 1:19 pm
 2 

My heart goes out to you. I have an old dog too and I cherish every day she is with us because I know it will not be for much longer. Your Shadow was truly a beautiful dog.
.-= Patricia´s last blog ..The Good Communicator Award =-.

January 5th, 2010 at 1:19 pm
 3 

Yeah, I know what you mean. Our bad holiday began back in July and continued to circle the toilet through the end of the year.

There’s nothing to do for the grief except knowing it means you’re not dead, which at times does not seem so appealing.

On the other hand, I have found that watching Gremlins always puts Christmas in perspective, knowing at least no one is stuck in the chimney in a Santa Claus suit.

January 5th, 2010 at 2:49 pm
 4 

Yeah, I know what you mean. Our bad holiday began back in July and continued to circle the toilet through the end of the year.

There’s nothing to do for the grief except knowing it means you’re not dead, which at times does not seem so appealing.

On the other hand, I have found that watching Gremlins always puts Christmas in perspective, knowing at least no one is stuck in the chimney in a Santa Claus suit.

January 5th, 2010 at 2:49 pm
 5 

Hugs for you.

January 5th, 2010 at 2:51 pm
 6 

Hugs for you.

January 5th, 2010 at 2:51 pm
 7 

Hi Jude,
I was sorry to hear about the loss of your loved ones. Our pets are part of our lives and we love them very much. I never really know what to say with the loss of a child to someone. I just know that our children are gifts from God and we are Blessed. I do believe you will see your son again one sweet day. Thinking of you and wishing you brighter days. Take good care!
.-= Robin´s last blog ..Tips for Increasing Fiber Intake =-.

January 5th, 2010 at 3:06 pm
 8 

Hi Jude,
I was sorry to hear about the loss of your loved ones. Our pets are part of our lives and we love them very much. I never really know what to say with the loss of a child to someone. I just know that our children are gifts from God and we are Blessed. I do believe you will see your son again one sweet day. Thinking of you and wishing you brighter days. Take good care!
.-= Robin´s last blog ..Tips for Increasing Fiber Intake =-.

January 5th, 2010 at 3:06 pm
 9 

I was thinking about you the other day. We got through Christmas, the first without Mom. Then we got through New Years, again the first without Mom. We take strength from each other. I know we all feel grief differently; but I think it’s important to keep doing the same things. That’s what those we loved and lost would want.

In a few minutes I’m heading to the hospital. My younger brother is having surgery. It’s a 2nd surgery actually, things aren’t going well. This will be first time we’ve all been there since being there when Mom died. But, we have each other; and will be strong for each other.

Keeping you and yours in my thoughts.
Hugs
Sandy

January 5th, 2010 at 3:44 pm
 10 

I was thinking about you the other day. We got through Christmas, the first without Mom. Then we got through New Years, again the first without Mom. We take strength from each other. I know we all feel grief differently; but I think it’s important to keep doing the same things. That’s what those we loved and lost would want.

In a few minutes I’m heading to the hospital. My younger brother is having surgery. It’s a 2nd surgery actually, things aren’t going well. This will be first time we’ve all been there since being there when Mom died. But, we have each other; and will be strong for each other.

Keeping you and yours in my thoughts.
Hugs
Sandy

January 5th, 2010 at 3:44 pm
 11 

The holidays can be rough anyway, let alone if you have lost loved ones. It is so great of you to share your special “sons” with us. Take care of yourself within your time of reflection.
.-= KellieS´s last blog ..Natural vs Organic and Women’s Blogs to Love =-.

January 5th, 2010 at 3:50 pm
 12 

The holidays can be rough anyway, let alone if you have lost loved ones. It is so great of you to share your special “sons” with us. Take care of yourself within your time of reflection.
.-= KellieS´s last blog ..Natural vs Organic and Women’s Blogs to Love =-.

January 5th, 2010 at 3:50 pm
 13 

i am returning the same my friend…(((((((hugz))))))))

much love to you!
.-= PJ´s last blog ..Same shit, different day… =-.

January 5th, 2010 at 4:26 pm
 14 

i am returning the same my friend…(((((((hugz))))))))

much love to you!
.-= PJ´s last blog ..Same shit, different day… =-.

January 5th, 2010 at 4:26 pm
 15 

I’m so sorry for your loss of two of your loved ones. Holidays can be hard enough as it is but add in the memory of losing someone close to you makes it that much harder. Big Hug for you and take the time you need for yourself.
.-= ann´s last blog ..Since you asked =-.

January 5th, 2010 at 4:55 pm
 16 

I’m so sorry for your loss of two of your loved ones. Holidays can be hard enough as it is but add in the memory of losing someone close to you makes it that much harder. Big Hug for you and take the time you need for yourself.
.-= ann´s last blog ..Since you asked =-.

January 5th, 2010 at 4:55 pm
 17 

I was wondering where you’ve been, Jude. I was hoping that you made it through Christmas okay, and I’m sad to hear your bad news.

I hope you find comfort in the love that you shared with both Eric and Shadow. I’ll bet they are together in heaven, sitting and chatting about how much they love you and how good you were to them both. You now have two angels looking out for you, my friend.

I send you love and hugs, plus strength to get through this very difficult time. You gave Shadow life again when everyone else was saying to give up hope. Shadow is a beautiful memory of faith and love, Jude. Hold that dear along with the love of Eric–and know that life IS beautiful, even though you don’t feel like that these days.

We’ll be here when you are ready to come back. But know that we care and miss you dearly.
.-= Lin´s last blog ..Friendship at 40 =-.

January 5th, 2010 at 5:55 pm
 18 

I was wondering where you’ve been, Jude. I was hoping that you made it through Christmas okay, and I’m sad to hear your bad news.

I hope you find comfort in the love that you shared with both Eric and Shadow. I’ll bet they are together in heaven, sitting and chatting about how much they love you and how good you were to them both. You now have two angels looking out for you, my friend.

I send you love and hugs, plus strength to get through this very difficult time. You gave Shadow life again when everyone else was saying to give up hope. Shadow is a beautiful memory of faith and love, Jude. Hold that dear along with the love of Eric–and know that life IS beautiful, even though you don’t feel like that these days.

We’ll be here when you are ready to come back. But know that we care and miss you dearly.
.-= Lin´s last blog ..Friendship at 40 =-.

January 5th, 2010 at 5:55 pm
 19 

Jude, I’m so terribly sorry for your pain and loss. I wish there was some way to ease your heart. We are here and thinking about you.
.-= Buggys´s last blog ..Random Tuesday Thoughts =-.

January 5th, 2010 at 6:55 pm
 20 

Jude, I’m so terribly sorry for your pain and loss. I wish there was some way to ease your heart. We are here and thinking about you.
.-= Buggys´s last blog ..Random Tuesday Thoughts =-.

January 5th, 2010 at 6:55 pm
 21 

Oh Jude I AM SO SORRY!!! I know you were so overjoyed that Shadow was recovering, how heartbreaking! I am just so very sorry!!! What a tough, tough month for you!! ((((HUGS))))
.-= Carole´s last blog ..Cloudy With a Chance of Meatballs on DVD Movie Reivew =-.

January 5th, 2010 at 7:53 pm
 22 

Oh Jude I AM SO SORRY!!! I know you were so overjoyed that Shadow was recovering, how heartbreaking! I am just so very sorry!!! What a tough, tough month for you!! ((((HUGS))))
.-= Carole´s last blog ..Cloudy With a Chance of Meatballs on DVD Movie Reivew =-.

January 5th, 2010 at 7:53 pm
 23 

My heart is with you. (((hugs))) I wish I could be there to really hug you. Both your babies are so beautiful!! You were blessed to have them while you could.
.-= Rebecca´s last blog ..Fish Make Pregnant Women Happy =-.

January 5th, 2010 at 10:15 pm
 24 

My heart is with you. (((hugs))) I wish I could be there to really hug you. Both your babies are so beautiful!! You were blessed to have them while you could.
.-= Rebecca´s last blog ..Fish Make Pregnant Women Happy =-.

January 5th, 2010 at 10:15 pm
 25 

I so so sorry about your loss, and even more so that it occurred at such a difficult time. (((hugs))) and prayers for you.
.-= Lynne´s last blog ..Baby Quilt =-.

January 5th, 2010 at 10:45 pm
 26 

I so so sorry about your loss, and even more so that it occurred at such a difficult time. (((hugs))) and prayers for you.
.-= Lynne´s last blog ..Baby Quilt =-.

January 5th, 2010 at 10:45 pm
 27 

Judy,
I hope these days will pass for you. We lost my brother to melanoma cancer in 2005 (he was 39 year old) and every holiday season is still so hard on my mother. It’s a tough thing to lose a child. I pray every day that I don’t ever have to understand that kind of mother’s pain. I pray that God will eventually soften the pain. Not to forget your son, but to make it easier for you to deal with the holidays. My heart goes out to you.
.-= Lisa – Alterity´s last blog ..The Dirty Studio!!! =-.

January 5th, 2010 at 11:09 pm
 28 

Judy,
I hope these days will pass for you. We lost my brother to melanoma cancer in 2005 (he was 39 year old) and every holiday season is still so hard on my mother. It’s a tough thing to lose a child. I pray every day that I don’t ever have to understand that kind of mother’s pain. I pray that God will eventually soften the pain. Not to forget your son, but to make it easier for you to deal with the holidays. My heart goes out to you.
.-= Lisa – Alterity´s last blog ..The Dirty Studio!!! =-.

January 5th, 2010 at 11:09 pm
 29 

I’m so sorry for your loss! It sounded like Shadow was doing so much better, so I know this must have been a huge shock. :(

I’m sure he is keeping Eric company right now. Hugs to you!
.-= Storm´s last blog ..Totally 80s Random Thoughts Tuesday =-.

January 6th, 2010 at 12:38 am
 30 

I’m so sorry for your loss! It sounded like Shadow was doing so much better, so I know this must have been a huge shock. :(

I’m sure he is keeping Eric company right now. Hugs to you!
.-= Storm´s last blog ..Totally 80s Random Thoughts Tuesday =-.

January 6th, 2010 at 12:38 am
 31 

Jude, no words…just (((hugs)))! Whenever you feel like posting again, we’ll be here.
Love,
Anna

January 6th, 2010 at 2:23 am
 32 

Jude, no words…just (((hugs)))! Whenever you feel like posting again, we’ll be here.
Love,
Anna

January 6th, 2010 at 2:23 am
 33 

Most do not believe that animals have souls, and I cannot tell you, “Thus saith the Lord,” that they do. Considering how well He has allowed and enabled me to get to really know Him, however, I suspect that all of our beloved pets, who have passed on before us, will be there waiting for us with tails a-waggin’.
.-= FishHawk´s last blog ..WhiteHeart Wednesday =-.

January 6th, 2010 at 6:02 am
 34 

Most do not believe that animals have souls, and I cannot tell you, “Thus saith the Lord,” that they do. Considering how well He has allowed and enabled me to get to really know Him, however, I suspect that all of our beloved pets, who have passed on before us, will be there waiting for us with tails a-waggin’.
.-= FishHawk´s last blog ..WhiteHeart Wednesday =-.

January 6th, 2010 at 6:02 am
 35 

I fully agree with FishHawk that one day our beloved pets will be waiting for us with tails wagging. We have a Golden that has been suffering with seizures for the past year even with medication, and I know it will leave a big hole in our family when he is gone one day.

That is definitely too much sadness packed into one month. As for your son, it is true that I couldn’t even begin to find words to express how this must make you feel. I certainly hope and pray that January will be a much brighter month for you.
.-= Tina T´s last blog ..Can Technology Enhance Your Relationships? =-.

January 6th, 2010 at 2:06 pm
 36 

I fully agree with FishHawk that one day our beloved pets will be waiting for us with tails wagging. We have a Golden that has been suffering with seizures for the past year even with medication, and I know it will leave a big hole in our family when he is gone one day.

That is definitely too much sadness packed into one month. As for your son, it is true that I couldn’t even begin to find words to express how this must make you feel. I certainly hope and pray that January will be a much brighter month for you.
.-= Tina T´s last blog ..Can Technology Enhance Your Relationships? =-.

January 6th, 2010 at 2:06 pm
 37 

Hi Jude I know exactly how you feel we lost our little girl on 2 Jan, 2010 and our lives feel so empty without her after the 15 years of joy she gave us. I am so used to her following me around all day and being under my feet that I still look out to see where she is.

January 6th, 2010 at 2:17 pm
 38 

Hi Jude I know exactly how you feel we lost our little girl on 2 Jan, 2010 and our lives feel so empty without her after the 15 years of joy she gave us. I am so used to her following me around all day and being under my feet that I still look out to see where she is.

January 6th, 2010 at 2:17 pm
jude
 39 

I would love to thank everyone for the comfort I feel when I read your comments and let you know your responses really touched my heart. Frostygirl we have been doing that since the 27th of Dec. and I’m quite sure it will never go away and I’m so sorry for your loss. We have been moping and crying so much that we needed a diversion and even though we said no more animals we decided to get Sadie a pet and believe me it is giving us little time to be depressed and lonely, it’s a 4 month old Westie.

January 6th, 2010 at 3:33 pm
jude
 40 

I would love to thank everyone for the comfort I feel when I read your comments and let you know your responses really touched my heart. Frostygirl we have been doing that since the 27th of Dec. and I’m quite sure it will never go away and I’m so sorry for your loss. We have been moping and crying so much that we needed a diversion and even though we said no more animals we decided to get Sadie a pet and believe me it is giving us little time to be depressed and lonely, it’s a 4 month old Westie.

January 6th, 2010 at 3:33 pm
 41 

We now have a stray cat who has adopted us and is also a distraction for us we have called him Maxi. Stay strong!
.-= frostygirl´s last blog ..DIE AFRIKANER VOLK VERBREEK HULLE GELOFTE VAN 16 DESEMBER 1838 AAN GOD =-.

January 7th, 2010 at 1:39 pm
 42 

We now have a stray cat who has adopted us and is also a distraction for us we have called him Maxi. Stay strong!
.-= frostygirl´s last blog ..DIE AFRIKANER VOLK VERBREEK HULLE GELOFTE VAN 16 DESEMBER 1838 AAN GOD =-.

January 7th, 2010 at 1:39 pm

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