Tomorrow is Grandparents day at Nate’s school and Bill is taking the day off so we can attend, afterwards since it will be nice we plan to ride the bike, I can’t wait. It’s been rainy and cold the last couple days, but it’s nice now and the sun is shining bright. Everyone is so busy with their own lives that we don’t get to spend much time together.

When we were over for Easter dinner Nate wanted to play the Wii with his Pappy. I think it’s so cute how you can make all those little people, but the only one that really looks like any of us is Pappy. Jodie said Nate always uses the Pappy figure when they play together, that little boy really loves his Pappy and wants to be just like him. He showed us Pappy riding the cow and it cracked us all up.

Pappy got to be himself so Nate had to use his own image which he didn’t like. They changed my hair and color so it would look like me now, I didn’t play because I didn’t take my glasses. They played tennis, boxed and then everyone had fun bowling, Bill really likes the bowling. We’re talking about getting one for ourselves so we can play together, should be fun and give us something different to do together.

Tonight I take Sadie for her shots and it’s always a big hassle getting her ready and getting her in the Jeep. She jumps around like crazy and makes noises like a monkey the whole time. Till I get to the Vet and home again I’m a nervous wreck, thank goodness it’s only once a year. I love my pets, but these two will be my last and I have loved sharing my life with them.

Till the next time have a good one.

At one point in time I wanted to be the best and sexiest 50 year old I could be. What??? You young people must be thinking, no one is sexy at 50 except Madonna. Well, no way I could compete there nor would I try, but for me I did my best and I really did enjoy my 49th transition into 50. I felt fit and tan and I loved my silk suit, which I still have, but can’t wear any more and the longer this menopause hangs in there the worse I look, I peaked at 50 and it’s been downhill ever since. See recent Nana photos.

I have never been a dress up type person as I told you before I’m happiest in my jeans, but that didn’t mean I didn’t like pretty and wicked looking undies. When I was young, well up till 50 I did wear sexy lingerie because it made me feel good, but I really don’t think I would wear anything risque now, like the piece I still hold on to below. Oh, I’m sure Bill would love it, but I would feel very self conscious and feel like an idiot, my sexy lingerie days are over give me my flannel and cotton briefs. I didn’t say sex was over, sorry too much info?

At any rate I wouldn’t be able to get my big toe into that thing now. Some women tell me that going through menopause has made them feel sexier, I certainly wish I could say the same, but that’s not the case for me and that’s a shame because it’s just not fair to Bill, I will be so glad when menopause goes away. When I was young I just couldn’t imagine that old people still had sex, it was just too weird to think about, but now that I’m that older person it’s not hard to imagine any more.

Funny how your views change with age and besides experts tell us that sex is good for your health so I look forward to being healthy for at least 20 more years or longer.

We just got home safely and I appreciate all of the prayers. I don’t feel like posting right now, but wanted everyone to know we’re back and still sick and will post something Monday, but my Son is resting now and I’m heartsick, but not sad that he is with his creator.

I have always liked to be called Nana over Granny and that’s what Nate calls me and Natalie will no doubt follow suit, these are Bill’s Daughters 2 children. When Bill’s Son had his 2 little girls I just assumed it would be the same, but found out that his wife’s Mother had chosen to be called Nana herself which is no big deal so I had to figure something else for them to call me.

I certainly didn’t like the idea of little kids calling me by my name and I wanted something easy so I decided on Juju since my niece had called me Aunt Juju many years ago. I am of course closer to Jodi’s kids than Billy’s anyhow so no big deal. I thought when Eric had Ethan I would get to be Nana to him, but Eric still referred to me as Granny to Ethan because he couldn’t remember what everyone wanted to be called.

Eric had a Granny and a Papaw. Bill gets to be Pappy of course to every one unless Eric forgets and calls him Papaw to Ethan. Chris’s Mother wants to be called Mom Mom, well I know it gets all confused for Eric with everything he is going through so I told him Granny is fine and he really appreciated my change of heart. Even though I feel my age I simply never thought of myself as a Granny, but I’ll live with it.

I really enjoyed being called Mom and Mama, I don’t ever remember my Son calling me Mother. Mother to me is so formal, but we all choose how we want our children and their offspring to address us. Even when Eric referred to me to others he never said my Mother, it was always my Mom and when he was small of course it was my Mama and he called me Mama until he was a teenager then he thought it sounded to babyish.

Eric called this morning to let me know they are doing surgery this afternoon to embed the permanent pain pump which will go directly to his spine and will take a couple hours to do. He has been in the hospital to build up his platelets so they could do the surgery. He said the levels had been around 16,000 and now they have them built up to over 100,000 they feel it’s safe for the surgery.

Just since August he has had 3 consecutive days of Chemo and 3 weeks off each month and since he has maintained keeping weight on even though his gallbladder was bad they decided to add radiation so he has now had 2 doses, but instead of small consecutive doses they have hit him with 3 times the regular amount in 2 treatments if he hadn’t had the extra weight they wouldn’t have done that. No wonder all of his levels are so low.

Last month he told me that the Cancer was already in his bones and we had been under the impression from the other hospital that they hadn’t reached that far yet. That’s when I kind of lost it and got really depressed, but I’m working through all that now and learning to deal better with the situation. I’m sure all of the positive energy sent our way has really helped and I’m really grateful for all the thoughts and prayers.

My son called over the weekend to let me know that Ethan David may be here a month early. He also said they had to give steroid shots to help develop the baby’s lungs or maybe I misunderstood that part. I’m not a very medically inclined person, but Bill’s daughter is a nurse and so is Eric’s wife and Bill thinks because his daughter is in the medical field that the knowledge rubbed off on him, so he tries to explain stuff to me.

I never really thought I would ever be a biological Nana so I’m really thrilled and can’t wait to see what he looks like or who he takes after. I have been gathering baby stuff together for our visit and I told him to call and let us know when she starts labor so we can be ready to jump in the car and go. It’s kind of hard to ask for vacation time when we don’t really know when the baby is going to be born.

I wanted to be there when Ethan is born, but just so long as he’s there and healthy when we get there I’ll be happy. I hate that they live so far away because I wont get to see him very much and watch him grow. I’m very happy that Jodie let me be a Nana to Nate so Nate will always have a special place in my heart. I’m pretty sure Eric will call me Granny to Ethan because that’s what he called his, but I like Nana and I don’t feel like a Granny.

I didn’t get to be Nana to Bill’s two Granddaughters because Chris’s Mom wanted to hold that title. I also didn’t want little people calling me by my first name so I picked my own name that would be easy for them to use, Ju-Ju. Jodie is also going to deliver a little girl August 19th by cesarean so we’ll be here for that. I was concerned that the two births were going to coincide, but it doesn’t look like that will occur, I would hate to miss either birth.

My Son called tonight and it was so unexpected of him that I was afraid to call back because I thought there might have been a miscarriage. If you know my son and his history then you would understand my dread when I get an unexpected phone call. Chris lost their first baby and if anything would happen with this one, I honestly think he would lose it.

Thank God it was happy news and he wanted to let me know that they had done the 3D sonograms or ultrasounds and he just wanted us to know that they saw some really good pictures of the baby and have the CD so I can see it and hopefully make a copy when we go to Kentucky in August. They decided on Ethan David which I like, he decided against Eric David Jr, but the initials are the same.

I want to try and time it so that I will be there when it’s born, but even though they have been told that it will be Aug 6th or the 8th and not my birthday which is the 7th since it’s a first child and at 38 it could be early or late, but I’m hoping it will be born on my birthday, now how great of a present would that be?

Eric said it looks just like him except the jaw line which is his wife’s and he says he has lots of hair which Eric did not. They were able to see that he had all his parts and that takes a worry off new parents especially older ones. Since she’s a nurse she would know any signs to look out for if something wasn’t right and she has had all test done to insure everything is okay.

It wont be long and now that it’s getting nearer I am getting more excited. I could tell by the way he was talking that he hoped when we come down that I will stay a lot longer than was originally planned. Of course Bill can’t, but I could and either take a bus back because I’m frugal or I could fly, but I’ll have to wait and see. I’m going to bed because I need to get up early in the morning.